Kiwi bodybuilder says ‘everything was stripped from him’ in steroid hell


Josh Williams with his girlfriend Sarah Harris. Photo / Provided

A bodybuilder and model has opened up about the struggles and rage issues he faced while using anabolic steroids.

Auckland-based Josh Antonio Williams was introduced to performance-enhancing drugs by a friend and started taking them after researching the drugs and convinced it was his only way to succeed in bodybuilding.

Six months after he started taking them, he placed first and second in two competitions.

But as the drugs began to cause side effects, with increased testosterone leading to fits of rage, Williams still failed to get a business card after too many cards were handed out by authorities, reports Daily Mail Australia.

“When you were young, you went out and partied more and you drank, and the alcohol mixed with the testosterone meant I was struggling,” he said.

“It made me even more depressed and I had social anxiety and people were afraid to be around me.”

Williams said he started losing friends after explosions saw him hitting walls. He also began to lose money as his personal training clients began to disappear.

And the modeling job dried up after steroids saw him double his height and fitness brands then deemed him “too big” to model for them.

On top of that, Williams experienced hair loss, depression, suicidal thoughts, and his testicles shrank.

The now 28-year-old said things in the bodybuilding industry have changed since then, with drug tests now being carried out before competitions. At the time, he was 21 and taking steroids was normalized.

Eventually, Williams decided he was done with steroids. As soon as he stopped taking them, he quickly lost much of his mass.

“I felt like everything had been stripped away from me – all the hours, hard work and extreme levels you push yourself to, and then I looked in the mirror and saw all that progress disappear,” he said. -he declares.

Now he uses his experience to help others.

As a personal trainer, Williams helps clients achieve their goals naturally. And he’s using his own story to challenge social media platforms that promote “crazy guys” to impressionable men and boys.

Meanwhile, Williams’ fiancée, Sarah Harris, also had her own health issues that she faced.

Earlier this year, Harris revealed how his breast implants led him to four years of hell after he started experiencing health issues and depression.

The Kiwi woman was 21 when she had her breast augmentation surgery. But now the 29-year-old believes they are the cause of a range of health issues.

“For a long time I believed my happiness and success was defined by the size of my breasts,” Sarah wrote on Instagram in June.

“Until my health was stolen from me.”

Harris said her symptoms included hormonal imbalance, fatigue, chest pain, food intolerance, nausea, migraines and irritable bowel syndrome.

“My hair is falling out in clumps, I often get rashes all over my body. Joint pain, chronic fatigue, anxiety and migraines now affect me on a daily basis. I have become allergic to a long list of things, including random metals like tin and lead,” she wrote.

“All my tests were inconclusive, I kept looking everywhere but breast implant disease, despite people talking about it. Why? I wasn’t ready for a cure, even though I felt like to be dying, I still chose my appearance over my health.

At times, her joint pain was so excruciating that Williams had to help her out of bed, which led to her having hip surgery in 2020.

“My joint pain is so bad that I even had hip surgery in 2020, but it didn’t help,” she wrote.

She has since had the implants removed and feels like she is back in control of her health.

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